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The Japanese Zen monk and poet Ryokan wrote:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cDo you want to know what is in my heart?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Since the beginning of time:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Just this,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Just this.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Often when we start meditating we think that during meditation there are some experiences we should <\/em>be having and others that we should not <\/em>be having. The most notable being thoughts, as well as almost any negative or unpleasant sensations or emotions. We believe meditation is where our minds become quiet and we don\u2019t feel anxious, irritated, angry or depressed anymore. Excluding<\/em> certain experiences from the landscape of \u2018meditation practice\u2019 means that when we do have these human experiences on the cushion (which we will) we judge ourselves for it. \u2018Oh I\u2019m so bad at this!\u2019, \u2018I\u2019m such a bad meditator\u2019. So in order to avoid judging ourselves we try to control our experience. We aim our meditation practice at trying to achieve more of certain experiences and we feel good when we get those experiences, and bad when we don\u2019t get those experiences. Perhaps we think staying with the breath for longer and longer will make us feel less and less stressed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n It is so easy and so natural for us to overcomplicate the practice of meditation and overlook it\u2019s simplicity. The eminent mindfulness teacher Joseph Goldstein describes meditation as being \u2018simple, but not easy\u2019. Meditation requires us to put down our \u2018doing\u2019, to let go of our deep impulse to try to control our experience, and instead to open to what is actually present for us, moment after moment. Meditation is almost too<\/em> simple for our goal-directed minds to understand at first.<\/p>\n\n\n\n As soon as we each form our own separate identities as toddlers we naturally hone the mind to become more and more adept at \u2018getting us things\u2019, whether it is attachment, love, success, acclaim, money, even happiness. All of these things we think require \u2018doing\u2019. Our minds are constantly solving problems in order to get us what we desire, whether its material things or more pleasant states of mind: we do \u2018this\u2019 in order to<\/em> get<\/em> \u2018this\u2019. This is the ordinary logic of the mind.<\/p>\n\n\n\n So when we sit down to practice, with all of our suffering, our hopes and aspirations and we are told to just be aware of whatever arises, paying attention to the breath, it is so hard not to think of meditation like a problem to solve, where we try to pay attention to the breath in order to <\/em>feel less stressed say, and solve the problem. But mindfulness is not a solution to a problem. In fact the practice runs completely counter to our ordinary goal-oriented conditioning (which is why meditation \u2018reconditions\u2019 our minds and has been shown to structurally change our brains).<\/p>\n\n\n\n The radical essence of the practice is captured in the phrase \u201cjust this\u201d. Mindfulness is about being: <\/em>simply being aware of what is happening, without doing <\/em>anything at all. But we find that it is hard just to be. <\/em>To be<\/em> human. To be<\/em> embodied. To feel what human beings feel. We find that the mind is ok with some things but not ok with others. It is so hard just to let things be as they are, to let ourselves be as we are, to let go<\/em>. Whether it is a thought, a sensation in the body, a sound, an emotion, this<\/em> is what it means to be human in this moment, to be alive, \u2018just this\u2019.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2018Just this\u2019 is a reminder to be open. Just <\/em>this. Not this in order for this. <\/em>And just this. <\/em>Whatever is present in your experience, well, it is already here. Nothing is off limits to this moment. ‘The mind’, ‘awareness’, ‘experience’ these are simply names for that place that is always already open to everything, in which everything appears, and in which everything simply is as it is. Our practice is just to rest in this open space that is already here.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cDo you want to know what is in my heart?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Since the beginning of time:<\/p>\n\n\n\n Just this,<\/p>\n\n\n\n Just this.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Often when we start meditating we think that during meditation there are some experiences we should be having and others that we should not be having… Read more<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":13,"featured_media":5204,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[10],"tags":[],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/moments.org.uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5025"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/moments.org.uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/moments.org.uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/moments.org.uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/13"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/moments.org.uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5025"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"https:\/\/moments.org.uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5025\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5390,"href":"https:\/\/moments.org.uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5025\/revisions\/5390"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/moments.org.uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/5204"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/moments.org.uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5025"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/moments.org.uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5025"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/moments.org.uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5025"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}